Compadre
 i.m. D. B. 
My nerves got on my nerves.
 I sewed myself into a padded jumpsuit.
 A girl at school razored my hair.
 I bleached. Went blue in front.
 Five years was an eternity
 as far as I could tell.
 The alley was dim with a phone box.
 Electric light and heat. Anything possible.
 Above me in the white plaster sky, my star.
 An older sister frowned.
 Wham bam thank you ma`am etc.
 It was all etc then as far as I could tell.
 I was a sullen fucker.
 Of all the voices that ever kept me company.
 All the shoes I bought and hats I wore.
 All the creeping terror and frantic solace.
 What a beach that was. What a tide.
 So that`s that.
 See you later alligator.
Sandra Tappenden
Illustration: Claire Palmer

