HAVING A BAD DAY

The Nazis killed all the unicorns
used them to fuel their Panzers

Took the Holy Grail to the Oktoberfest
drank and sang lustily about world takeover

Denounced the Yeti as a Jew
Non Aryan

Lost the War

We all moved on

My dreams are trapped in a blender
whirling around
all night long
As a moon sweats milky light and seeps
down on sleeping houses

It’s too warm to sleep
I twist like a cork-screw
I’m a human chestnut on the grill
Beach sand too hot to walk on

I dreamt they were selling your beautiful
long blonde hair by the metre in the Market
Sultanahmet Istanbul
Back of the Blue Mosque
Haggling over its beauty – can you imagine!

I walk back from the Galata Bridge
With a hundred men fishing along the way
So much silver blinking in those baskets

We could take a bus to Katmandu
Pick one up at the ‘Pudding Shop’
Sell my blood in Pakistan to feed us along
the way

Immanuel Velikovsky’s ‘Worlds In Collision’ is in my backpocket
Cash in plastic bag in my shoe

Back home Dad cracked up selling shares
and Mum took an overdose while listening
to Ella Fitzgerald
Her life just got stuck like the needle

It all just got too much, the GP said “You’re
better off out of it – no future here”

The Rabbi was supposed to call round
But he never showed up
Always just too busy they say

While the Tyrannosaurus Rex broke in an
took a bite out of their necks

It’s like an injection of darkness
Seriously!!!
My parents
That’s what depression feels like they said
Bollocks

No – it’s more like everything feels like shit –
you just want to die

Sometimes I think I’m going mad
carrying all this past around for so long
How much longer you ask yourself

Now I found a way to switch off all those bad
memories.
Pull up a duvet made of concrete and forget
about all the bad days that I’ve left behind
Try to dream I’m in Gehenna or Disneyland
not your fucking ridiculous Hell

I mean, it’s just a bad day.

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Malcolm Paul
Picture Nick Victor

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