the goalkeeper’s fear of spontaneity*



my cousin Mickey Abrams
always smaller than me
has revealed in a dream 
his once unknown history 
as a goalkeeper ….
it seems the school team 
he played for was so superior 
he had little to do 
so size was neither 
here nor there
however
as a goalkeeper
it seems the school team 
he played for was so superior 
he had little to do 
so size was neither 
here nor there
howeveronce in match when 

they were leading 
my cousin posed far outside 
his goal dreaming as ever 
of other things 
when a shout alerted him 
to his proper business 
the opposing centre forward 
clocking a yawning net 
lobbed the ball forward
Mickey desperately ran backwards
and bless us all 
caught the ball 
the only time he said 
he ever was
the hero of the hour
nnnnnn 

when my Aunt Dinah died 
she still had the small ceramic model
of a hornpiping sailor
which arty Mickey had made 
when at school
later in life he abandoned 
life on terra firma 
built a boat and sailed 
single-handed 
here there and everywhere 
we never lost touch 
his letters came from 
      The Azores or The Florida Keys 
or Le Bassin de L’Arsenal de Paris
or wherever he’d breezed
eventually they ceased
 and I feared he might 
have been lost at. Sea
sunk without trace 
you might say 
his life a sailor’s yarn 
as true as his dream 
of saving his team 
from sinking

 

.
Jeff Cloves
,,,,,,,
*The goalkeeper’s fear of the penalty
novel by Peter Handke 1970
film by Wim Wenders 1972

 

.

 

.

This entry was posted on in homepage and tagged . Bookmark the permalink.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.