I thought I saw it
I thought
I was exposed to the truth
I thought I knew everything, I thought I know everything
And then I found myself
Seeking for a little comfort
A little pleasure
Something to prove I exist
Something to confirm I am more than just a thing
And I failed
I failed myself
I failed it
And I sat
Alone
In my deepest loneliness
Wondering
What could fix this
The world
My existence
As I can’t fix
Myself
And there it was
The answer
“Nothing”
The fix
The answer
What it was
What it is
And I am so arrogant
To think
That I can change it
And make it a thing
Just to feel
I am
And maybe
I am not
I have never been
I just witnessed what it is
And I got delusional
I thought the whole world
Was there
To make me
And I was wrong
There was nothing
And the whole illusion of the world appeared
To prove
I was wrong
There is nothing to begin with
.
John the Outsider
Hong Kong
Picture Giacometti looking at the sculpture
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