When what you flee from is
not what you want to remember, blood
washing streets, bodies decomposing,
sisters forced to strip down, gorged on like
the entrails of cattle by a dozen or so men
wanting things they have no
right to, but expect you, your mother or daughter to
pay, when what you run towards is
not what you expect, ephemeral like sad clouds
passing overhead or translucent lines of
steam rising from coffee whose taste lingers
only in your memory, when what you witness is
not what you had hoped, for yourself and the others
with you, unwashed bodies, smells of fear, loss,
helplessness, hunger that not even the dog on the
street experiences, huddling in the darkness as
you rise and fall on waves pounding through, praying
to any god that listens to let you stay afloat
balancing precariously on her many sighs
and heaves and not embrace you into her octopus
arms like she did so many times gathering others into her,
the dark skirts smothering only to vomit them up on
beaches, worn out, unresponsive, of no
significance, when what you look forward to is
not what you get on arrival, the snaking lines, the wait,
the taunts, the beating, razor sharp wires that brand
your attempts to scramble out, the sneers and most of all the
looks of contempt, you wonder if what you left behind,
however terrible it was, however cruel the sun shone, was
better than this, a living death – who can say if there
is better than here, but can you retrace
your steps to here that doesn’t want you anymore?
SHIRANI RAJAPAKSE
https://writersforcalaisrefugees.wordpress.com/2015/10/26/shirani-rajapakse/
Very graphic and terrifying portrait of so many who still suffer today. Why? Man’s inhumanity from their own pain.? I hope those who would turn their backs on such suffering finally have a wake up call. Thank you for this difficult poem to wake up those who still sleep!
Comment by Eddie on 17 December, 2015 at 5:48 pmThank you Eddie. Share the poem and hopefully it will reach the people it is supposed to.
Comment by shiranirajapakse on 15 January, 2016 at 2:34 pm